Well as you know hubby is out of action with his back. Slow progress, but progress un-the-less, which is fantastic.
This set back as put a bit of extra pressure on me, as I have had to hold the fort, and be a one man show. It's OK, it's what we do when someone we care about is ill. He would, and has done it for me too.
But the strain of his weight on my shoulders has proved too much. This morning has proven that. I can't do it, and it freaks me out.
Getting myself ready for work my back decided that now would be the perfect time to pinch and grab, and send shuddering pain throughout my entire lower back and shoulders. Pulsing pain is now banging at my neck, shoulders, and lower back.
I took my strong medication, and tried a hot shower. Each movement threaten me with disaster. I called my Physio booked out today. Waiting for a call back to see if she can fit me in somewhere.
Called work in a teary panic. They were very understanding. But it's not going to pay the bills with both of us out of action now is it? Called our Doctor, asked if he could see me too, was going there today for hubby anyway.
Heated my wheat pillow and sat down. Realised that for now I couldn't move. Crying I call my daughter and asked her to come home. She is on her way. She can stay a few days. Such a heavy burden to put on such young shoulders.
Messaged my best friend and told her what had happened. She came right over. I stopped crying just before she got here. Drugs making me feel off the planet. She was like my angel.
Within minutes my boys had breakfast, my washing was off the line, and folded, and the odd dishes left on the sink where done. Hot cup of tea for me, and then she took off with child 3 to the shops to grab a few essentials, and something easy to cook for dinner tonight.
I sat here, useless, and so utterly grateful she was here. I am really blessed to have such people in my life. So very blessed.
Drugs seem to be doing their work and I can move about carefully, but I am paranoid. I can not fall down. Hubby needs me now.
Car yard rang too, new car is ready to pick up next Tuesday! With any luck this day will be a long distant memory by then.
So for now I just take it easy. I can't bend down, and with any luck my sweet Physio can fit me in and ease this pressure so I can function better.
Wish me luck.
Something this back issue has taught me is that I can not afford to be shy about asking for help. Sometimes we can only get by with a little help from our friends.
THANK YOU xx